I'm out of High school; I have mixed feelings about that, relieved yet terrified. I'm starting college after summer. I don't really know if I'll be able to handle it, I'll see soon enough I guess. The sad part of not knowing if I can handle college is I only have two classes. Yeah, I'm worried about two classes. I've been in special education since my second year of seventh grade, there is no SpecEd program in college, so I'm going from six years of help, support, and direction to nadda. I'm getting nervous and scared just thinking about it. I'm smart, but I have emotional/behavioral/mental problems that make this hard. I have a crippling fear of failing, disappointing people, and big changes. I'm so afraid of bothering people I feel horribly guilty just asking someone for help. I wouldn't even dare to say any of this out loud to any one because I feel like I'm being selfish for taking up peoples time... Yeah, going to college is going to be nerve racking...

Um, I'll shut up now...